This is the trouble with starting any kind of practice. When you first get the intention to start, you’re filled with both a firm view of the possibilities it might offer, and the fuel to get it done.
Some days you can’t see the possibilities, but you have the fuel. That’s ok, the fuel can push you through.
Some days you don’t have the fuel, but you can still see the possibilities. That’s ok, the possibilities can pull you through.
Some days you have neither. And on those days, all you can do is commit to putting one foot in front of the other.
It doesn’t really matter what you do on those days, what matters is showing up and doing the work.
Intention is great – but it’s only great if it catalyses action. Without action, intention is irrelevant.
You can grab someone roughly by the arm because you want to do them harm, or you can grab someone roughly by the arm because they’re about to step in front of a bus. The intentions are different, but they’re only different because something happened.
If you don’t show up and do the work then it doesn’t really matter what you intended.
This isn’t a great piece of writing, but that’s ok. Today its job isn’t to be good. Today its job is just to make sure that my intention to write is manifest.
And sometimes that’s enough.